5 golden years

my thoughts

My Thoughts

My sincere thanks for your support as I continue sharing in the hopes that others will benefit from my experiences and insights.

[Covered: Accepting Truth; Finding Humor; In the Beginning; Anatomy of a Hoarder; Disassociating; The Why of It; Grieving; Aspects of Addictive Families; Borderline Personality Disorder; Narcissism; Mother’s Backstory; Living in Borderland; Crazymaking; Siblings; Birth Order; Treatment of Family Members; Running Interference; Religiosity; Spiritual Journey; Living Backwards; End of Life Planning; Sorrow and Hope; Eulogy; Epilogue]

  • journey from religiosity

    As previously shared, I have observed and lived with the disconnect between being quoted scripture and the person’s life actions. Mother was a woman devoted to her brand of christianity, constantly quoting Scripture, moralizing to her family, friends, anybody around her. On Mother’s behalf, her father, revived from near alcoholic induced death, became a “hell Read more

  • veneer christianity

    Religiosity dominated much of our family life growing up; that is, my Mother’s warped version. While firmly believing in the basic tenets of Christianity and living out to the best of his ability, Father retreated to the background, as he did in most areas. Starting from an early age, Mother’s method of discipline was to Read more

  • more manipulations

    With some time elapsed, my mind clearer, I now wonder at my responses to some of the following. I will say that, just as I had vowed to not let bitterness overtake me when disentangling from an unhealthy relationship; so too, I vowed not to become bitter, or at least not stay bitter towards Mother Read more

  • thickening fog

    As it drew closer to the end of Mother’s life, the effects of her major TIA episode, along with continuing bouts with lack of oxygen became more apparent. [transient ischaemic attack (tia), occurs when there is a disruption in the blood supply to a part of the brain, resulting in a temporary period of symptoms Read more

  • winning the battle, part 2

    [I will share here what I have learned and what has helped me become free of Mother’s, and others spells.] The dance you are doing with the narcissist must stop. First, you must truly understand what you are trying to get rid of (explored fully in previous posts). With this understanding, you are ready to Read more

  • the narcissist: exorcising from your life

    Escaping and removing oneself from the narcissist is extremely difficult. While I have shared recommendations from clinical specialists; what propelled me to finally understand, become free and separate myself from Mother and others, is found in HG Tudor’s, Exorcism: Purging the Narcissist From Heart and Soul (2016), as well as his other books and youtubes Read more